Losing the best

Ah, I just got home from being in Indiana for a week to help with VBS at a church. I am super exhausted but overwhelmed with the feeling of knowing I helped some kids discover Christ..Yep, that's right.. Well, besides the amazing feeling of that and the awesome experience I had there, my world is crashing all around me. Recently I lost two of the biggest most important people in my life and I think I'm losing myself as well. I don't know how I will live without those two people in my life to show me that I'm here for a reason. I don't know how I'm going to handle everyone treating me differently either. I have some getting used to and possibly some major changes to overcome. But I think I need to let go of what has been constantly in the back of my mind for quite some time. I know the one person that I really want to read this, won't. But, I've been told to do this anyway.
Here's to letting go..Interpret that how you please.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nICbEbCaK40&feature=fvst  --- Wow.. Just wow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&v=JbqOplWlTcc&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocaOvp-EMFI&feature=relmfu

Sonngggg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=qX2ogjHSLZM&feature=fvwp

I am in love with this song, and Meghan and Liz!! (:

I love my dad!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yoBvKgreKyA

Meghan and Liz singing my favorite song, which makes me think of my Daddy!! You are the best dad, and I have no idea how you did it single when Lindsey and I were young. You can barely control us now. I know you're probably not reading this, but I don't care...

I love you, Dad. <3

Yes, I'm talking to you.

"I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right."

I just want you to know that I have always been there for you. But when I need to talk, or I need something you ignore me. Don't say you were busy, cause I know you weren't. You tell me a lot and would probably trust me with almost anything, but you're never there for me. So next time you are troubled, or want to talk to me, change your mind cause I'm not talking back. Maybe this will be your wake up call or "encouragement."

-Sincerely, Nobody.

Music brings people together

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ZC6JuTlOVM&feature=related

Music really does bring people together. I seriously think that music can and will one day change the world. Music has so much meaning, and can speak the words through melody that our minds can't even think about saying. Whether the song is about death, or partying it can change people. <3

Love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3oqO2jLklc&context=C427b205ADvjVQa1PpcFO4IYsrN-pQHaEejxBTMDsIXfXzesQY3wc=

This song, is just amazing. It describes a relationship right now and I couldn't ask for anything better. Her voice is amazing so it makes it better. Just wishing this will all work out. <3

Laughter is the best medicine

Just a little update on how my random hospital visit has turned out. One word to describe it; wonderful...Are you catching the sarcasm there?

My mother ended up scheduling a doctors appointment for me on Friday. When we get to her office we didn't have to wait too long before I heard "Kaitlyn" belted out from behind the window. I go in a little room and sit through the normal junk when you are seeing the doctor. After that we finally got our room and was waiting to see my doctor. In this room was a ceiling to floor huge picture of some baseball game in what I'm guessing to be in the '90's at least. It was entertaining to see all the old styles that are coming back. The doctor switched my medicine, and had ordered me for a chest x-ray, and to make an appointment to go see my kidney doctor in St.L again.

We did the x-rays, she was looking for pneumonia in my lungs, but found none. Which is a good and bad thing, it's good that I don't have pneumonia but that makes this search one diagnosis harder.

My sister came along for the ride, also. So we got in the car and mom screamed, "It's still Happy Hour!!" and she floors it to Steak N' Shake, where we all get milkshakes. Which were Ah-mazing. We didn't want that day to end there, so we went shopping, and I got new kicks, which are preeeetttyy fly. (:

A Thousand Years.

Man, time gets away from me like no other. If you follow me and actually pay attention and read my posts, I'm sorry!

Well in the mean time that I haven't blogged, I ended up in the hospital for a day. I was at my volleyball tournament, and got this sudden sharp pain in the right side of my lower back, causing it to be difficult for me to breathe. I waited for the game to get over, not wanting to cause a scene, and told my coach. We walked to our locker room, she called my father and asked what he wanted me to do, we were in Noble, which is an hour and five minutes away from where my father was. They decided that the bus would take me to the nearest hospital which was in Flora, twenty minutes from Noble and forty eight minutes from my home.

With me in tears, my coach terrified, and all my team mates worried, we loaded onto the bus. I preceded to lie down with friends holding my feet, giving me water and Kleenex's for the next twenty minutes. I'm pretty sure that I dozed off, cause I woke up to my coach rubbing my hair which she wasn't doing when I was awake. The bus pulled up to Clay County Hospital, and I realized that my mom works here, but I didn't know if she worked today. I walked in with my coach, and my mom came out of the emergency room and sat with me, talking to my coach. Mom said that she had it from there, and my coach went off to the bus. Soon after I saw my dad wonder in, and they talked and decided that Clay County had too many people waiting so they took me to Salem, 30 minutes away.

We got there and instantly got a room with no wait. My dad works there, so all the nurses just joked around for a while, when I was in obvious pain. She weighed me took temp. did the normal, and then a different nurse came in and mixed up an awful drink that I had to drink in order to get my cat scan, not fun. When we got back to our room my normal nurse, Jaime came in ready to draw blood and start my I.V. I cried like a baby, I hate needles. I don't remember much but the pain, and holding my dads hand crying "No, I don't want to do this!"

By that time, I had 2 vicodin in me, and was getting pretty loopy. I had decided that I needed to use the restroom, Mom helped me out of bed, and into the rest room where I laughed for at least five minutes, cause "I couldn't feel my legs." So we walked back to the room, hand in hand, afraid that I was going to fall cause I all the sudden forgot how to walk. They hooked the I.V. into a pump and was giving me antibiotics. I don't remember anything else from that night other than what my mom and dad and Jaime told me. I have no idea where my hospital band went either. I guess I kept asking my mom for kisses, and asking her how to spell things... That's what drugs do to you, kids.

After being in the hospital for seven hours we left  not knowing what is causing the pain, and with a lot of medicine. The pain has gone away, and I pray that it never returns.

A Thousand Years, the life of me(:

"How to be brave?"
My definition of being brave is being courageous enough to step out of your comfort zone, and being able to trust.

This year I was gonna try to get perfect attendance at the end of the year, because last year Abby got it and I thought it would be neat to get it. Well, that goal ended this morning when I woke up and was not feeling up to par. I've had this whole head cold junk for at least a month. Being snotty one minute, and stuffed up the next. The wish I make on 11:11 is always being able to breathe. One day, hopefully soon I will get over this.

So, I decided to stay home from school today. Man, did I hate it. It really felt like summer 2011 ALL over again. That had to be one of the most boring summers I have ever had. But today lasted for ever and back. Glad it's almost over.

I'm going to try and blog almost every day, just to let you know how the day goes. Mostly to let it all out, considering no one is reading this. But, heeey, it's all good.(;

http://my.brainshark.com/Homecoming-630038816.
I made this video also in remembrance of the soldiers who are fighting for us every day. You've got a strong heart.

-Letters from War Mark Schultz
-American Soldier Toby Keith

Homecoming

Homecoming I made this video on Animoto, and I have always had a heart open and out to our soldiers so I made this to show how much they are appreaciated. The only thing I dislike about it is that its only 38 seconds (which I could not help) and it cut the song off to where you don't get the full meaning. The song is "Letters from War" by Mark Schultz. (:

Lint? No, Lent! Day 1

So, my friend (Angel) and I were planning on doing Lent. Well we kinda started a day late due to the fact that we both forgot. :/ Sorry, Jesus <3 Any who, we chose three things to do during Lent; no chocolate, no soda, and no cussing. The cussing one is SO difficult for me. I do, indeed have a potty mouth. Everytime I say a no-no word I have a couple people slap me, and hopefully, I WILL learn. The whole no chocolate and no soda is a totally different story, I could not eat, or eat,  a certain food for like ever. I was actually gonna do fruit for breakfast, salad for lunch, and whatever healthy you could scrounge up at home for supper, but of course Angel couldn't do that. (: But the only thing is that it would have to be something I semi-enjoyed, I am SO unbelievably picky. P.S. I LOVE salads!

So, I just found out that my childhood friend has a crippling disease. I grew up with this family, I was at their house more than I was at my own. I miss her like crazy, and it kills me to know she's in need of support and comfort right now and I haven't talked to her in at least 5 years. I'm going to try to keep in touch. Hang in there, Baby doll. I love you, Madi, hugs(: Please check out Project Nicoloff on Facebook.

Meh.

I wanna be more like her, and a lot less like me. Why must this life be as difficult as it is? Meh. #crawlinginahole.goodbye.

The past is the past, but I want you to be in my future.

It's been almost two months. Two months since we've spoken to each other. I seen you about three weeks ago, but you probably thought nothing of it. When I saw you, my heart was crushed. People always ask, you guys don't talk anymore? What happened? Well, I have to tell them, oh we just stopped talking. But inside I'm screaming, he hurt me and I Put up with it way to long. I want you back, but I know that you'll say the same hurtful things you said in the past. I miss how you made me feel. I miss knowing I could tell you anything. I miss you being the first text I got when I woke up, and the last text I got before I fell asleep. I. Miss. You.

Can't Forget You

Whoever said this pain would ever go away
Didn't know what it meant to be here without you
Is everything you see, reminding you of me
Does it hurt when you breathe too
'Cause it does when I do
'Cause it does when I do

When anybody says your name, I wanna run away
I keep remembering and I can't forget you
It doesn't matter what I tried, it happens anyway
It's been forever and I can't forget you
With every single day, it won't go away
And when it's said and done you're the only one
And I can't regret you, so I can't forget you

(And when it's said and done, you're the only one
And when it's said and done, you're the only one
You're the only one)

I hate to feel this way
My days all feel the same
And yesterday was proof
That tomorrow will too
No matter what they say
Can't drink it all away
'Cause all I do
Is think about you
Is think about you

When anybody says your name, I wanna run away
I keep remembering and I can't forget you
It doesn't matter what I tried, it happens anyway
It's been forever and I can't forget you
With every single day, it won't go away
And when it's said and done you're the only one
And I can't regret you, so I can't forget you

Stop haunting my dreams
Please set me free.

<3

Adventures lie ahead of us.

Today, my family decided that we needed to take an adventure. So we thought that it would be great fun to go to the City Museum in St.Louis Missouri. We head over there and on the way, Lindsey and I were trying to finish my Wreck This Journal we were going to have random people sign it at the museum, but unfortunately we forgot in the car. ): We had a lot of fun at the museum, and learned a lot about
Wilson. (; I won the high five war, of course, cause I'm a boss.

New blog: reason for the name

This story begins with three crazy friends wanting to start a blog. (:
I have a friend, Tim Sprinkle, that has a blog, Just a Sprinkle. Which the title can be taken two different ways; a sprinkle as in rain, or a spinkle on a cupcake. We decided that it meant a sprinkle on a cupcake, and came up with this genius idea to make blogs that in the end would make a cupcake. So, I am the beginning, Just Some Cake Batter, then following is Shelby with Just a Little Cupcake, next is Angel, with Just Some Icing, and finishing off (which he is not aware of yet) is Tim, with Just A Sprinkle.

I am going to try my best to update often, but you know, I'm Busy Bessy.(: